In the darkness I could only smell. Something I’m not quite sure what…but it does kind of remind me of the smell of cat! Yes, I can feel hairs all over me.And I seem to be lying in some sort of flat container.Next thing I feel are soft paws. I suddenly wake up to find myself staring up at a cats arse. I don’t understand.But as I see the shit appearing, I realise that I’m being used in the cat litter tray. From suffering one type of pussy to another one. How much lower can I go?
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It’s so hot and claustriphobic in here, I can barely stand it. It smells of cheap perfume and cheaper cunt. A cock is pressing up againgst the outside of me. I can hear someone crying. After what feels like an eternity of suffering, the smell of hot piss fills my small enclosure. The crying gets louder. And only when the sound fills my ears do I realize, that it’s me, crying from my very soul for all the unendourable that I endour.
- Published:September 30th, 2008
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Woken from my diaper slumber today by being opened up by the video lights hurting my eyes. Looking that way I’m faced with an ugly cunt with lips like a Lancaster Bombers bomb doors, and then looking the other way, another ugly cunt (a guys face) about to descend. His eyes are popping out of his fugly mug, and soon I can feel the stubble, as I look up his nose. Sweet Jesup, he spits into the chick. Some falls on me. I can see bits of food in it. And so starts another day in Hell.
- Published:September 16th, 2008
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I dream that I’m on a ship in a storm. The ship is sinking. People are running around like crazed rats. The water starts to spill onto the deck. I shout but my voice is lost in the wind. I must find a life boat. But then I look down and see that I am a diaper. I am immobile. The icey water creeps towards me. With all my might I will mysef to move but to no avail. The water touches my padding and starts slowly being absorbed. Its coldness tingles. The next wave takes me off the deck and into the heaving sea. And then I am sinking. Falling into the darkness. And for a fleeting moment the sadness is lifted.
- Published:September 12th, 2008
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Today the assistant opened me for use, but then decided againgst using me, but only closed me up alittle. So, I was lying there, awake, but with not enough of a gap to see out clearly. Because I long to see the world, a world that I know lies outside of diapersexvideos, a free world. One full of laughter and fun, of children and little birds and ice cream and picnics in the park with cute kittens. But from here I can just make out the back of a chair. Life is so cruel. God really does hate me. Let me sleep and never wake up.
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Diaper sex with two chicks. The other diaper is so excited but I try and stay cool. These gigs are never that straight forward. Soon I can see the chicks tongue as she moves me to one side and starts on the other chicks pussy. I can see her eye lashes, see into her mouth and feel her hot breathe on me. I can see the small hairs in her nose and see where the mascara is slightly smudged. I try to see beyond her face, into the real world I so miss, but she’s just too close. After some time they stop and I hear the word “poop” mentioned. They need only one girl to do the do. I know that if I pray for it NOT to be me, it’ll be me. So, I pray to make it me. Dear Lord, hear this pray. Help your diapered son in his hour of need. I guess I have “short straw puller” written on me. Yes, the girl shits on me. I want to turn away, but am forced open for the camera, and thus the world, to see. Whatever I did before, in my past life, I take it back. Just make this stop. Please.
